I just finished Jeffrey Eugenides’ new novel, The Marriage Plot. The book follows three people from their days at Brown in the early 80s to the year after their graduation. Which pretty much explains my predicament down to a T. And! It’s intellectually rewarding in a (mostly referential) whirlwind-y review of major literary, religious, and scientific ideas sort of manner.

I never thought the particularly salient (but mundane) details of college and post-graduation anxiety were in any way unique to me or the people I knew. But this book distills it to its most wonderful, vivid form. The fact that it’s set at Brown, that I can recognize all the street name and the buildings, that the heroine worships novels while hoping to understand what everyone else is talking about in relation to semiotics by throwing herself in headfirst… it finally felt like a book I could actually relate to, despite all the differences between myself and everyone involved. 

It’s funny how much the mere invocation of undergraduate motifs can immediately suck you back into a world where everyone is different but the same, and the question of what makes something ‘smart’ is at once infuriating and heartbreaking. And then, once you leave it all, even if it’s only for a short while, everything falls away, apart, so easily. So you ask yourself, how can something which once meant everything to me (this class, this paper, this exam) get pushed to the side so fluidly? Aren’t we supposed to have some kind of mourning period? 

It turns out the answer is yes, in a rather roundabout way. Life may go on, but you never quite abandon the platitudes you researched and jabbered on about for four years, thinking to yourself, “Well, this may not be original, but at least I’ve realized it sooner instead of later.”

There’s more to the novel, of course. Its celebration of nerdiness, all the way from English conventions to yeast labs to half-hearted religious pilgrimages. A play on Victorian tropes, which is the whole basis of the title. And the question of, as the epigraph suggests, whether or not we would fall in love if we hadn’t read it in books, books very much like this one. All I can say is, the beauty of tropes is that they can be, for better or worse, incredibly satisfying to read. And so the cycle continues.